My my my… what to type, what to leave out, what’s fun and what’s just absolutely depressing. I don’t know, I can’t choose. I hate it here. I must have said in one of my previous posts that i was looking forward to some free time this semester, well I ate my words and they were bitter to say the least.
This the second semester of the fourth year that is one year away from finishing undergrad has me by the throat. We have about 3 course units which must sound great until it is discovered that one of those three has 5 in it (yes 5) tears, anguish, despair and they do not connect, at all (Dermatology, HIV, TB, Oncology and Palliative care) okay maybe the last two, somehow. The rotations were both rapid and depressing, each lasted ONE WEEK, 12 hour days not including the zoom/ physical lectures which for the most part were at night. Those five weeks drained the willingness to persevere out of me. I was promised the most relaxed rotation out of the last 3 years, I’m ready to sue.
On the other hand, I am indeed one step closer to the end, it wasn’t all bad and I have seen some new things that got me thinking a little bit more about life (and appreciating it) so I’m glad there’s that.
We once again have to return to the sites we went to last year (urgh!!) to “implement” what we have not yet figured out, we shall have no Christmas or New Year’s break because, you know, doctors don’t rest or something and that is how a very biased and exhausted me has finally found time to give a short (whiny) summary of the last 2 – 3 months.
Is Australia accepting baby doctor immigrants? I’m very hardworking I promise.
Some nights I dream and I see myself as never before
In the middle of the night I see I can be all I think I can be
But in the bright light of day my flaws glare back at me
And I can pretend no longer
Those dreams turn to vapour from the heat
Of expectations and failure
Of fear and never feeling good enough,
I allow the dark to let me dream
and the light to hold me back.
I feel, sometimes, that nothing else holds us back as much as we do. When i started this blog, i thought it would fail and end up being read by only me (look where that got me), then i came up with ideas that didn’t get the response i hoped and i gave up (as usual) because i felt like a failure and that led me to abandoning this blog for a while, i just needed to regroup (or so i said) but here i am once again battling my inner demons. Welcome to all the new additions!
Now that the harder semester (and it’s papers) is finally done 🎊🎊 here comes my continuation of get fit and healthy and buy a bikini even if I can’t swim (yay). This time, I want to put more focus on learning some cool new recipes because I feel like a real switch in my diet would really benefit me while giving me great tasty food too.
If you have some simple healthy and delicious recipes you think I should try starting Monday, don’t be afraid to share✨
Natural Bodybuilding Zone, HEALTH and NUTRITION and alkalinediettips welcome ✨
Apparently, we are 500 strong 🎊! Someone pinch me. In whatever way you’ve helped my blog (reading (web,app, email, wherever), liking, commenting, following thank you. I’m away at the moment (papers) but hope to be back soon and hopefully better!